My Goals

When you make a big decision, you generally have a goal, a vision for the results you desire. I have a few that all correlate with each other.

My first goal is to get fit - I want to lose a little weight, yes. Our scale is a little busted, but generally I weigh in somewhere between 137 and 140. On a rough day? Even more than that. I am not comfortable with that. My goal is 125. But more than lose weight, I want to eat healthy and get better about exercise!

Second goal -  I want to get all of the nutrients and supplements that my body needs. I have never liked red meat, fish, or pork. I would take 2 hours to eat my dinner because I did not want to eat the meat. I got sneakier as I got older and managed to throw it away some nights. So, when I was 14, I decided to make a decision for myself. I decided to stop eating those things. Other than one minor slip up of bacon ending up on a sandwich at a restaurant and another time with hamburger in my pasta... I have not eaten red meat or pork in 11 years. For a long time, I was not very good at replacing the protein and other nutrients I needed. When I went into college, I learned about all of the things I needed. I started taking different things. At one point I was taking 7 different vitamins and supplements a night. Ridiculous. So, now with Shakeology, I am getting everything I need!


    My 3rd goal is my most personal goal. But it really is important, and somehow, I feel a lot of people probably have the same issue. I have terrible self-esteem, a poor self-image. A lot of this is because I struggle with depression. Major depression and a bit of an anxiety disorder is what I have been diagnosed with a few times since the age of 12. It has gotten pretty bad on some occasions throughout the last 13 years. I have been on medication for it a couple of times, but I just don't like it. The biggest reason? It made me gain weight. I kept trying to lose it, but it just didn't work. So not only was I feeling super depressed, but I was looking in the mirror and so unhappy with what I saw. When you are depressed, your motivation to do much of anything (never mind exercise) is rather limited.
    Anyways. If you read my last post about beginning my journey (catch up here), then you know how I found out I would be getting laid off a few weeks before it happened. I spent time looking for a job, and somehow (though I knew nothing of the business opportunity at the time) kept getting sucked into the beach body website. I was starting to feel depressed about things going on. I was a little concerned. I didn't want to head down that road again. That is when I got proactive and joined beach body! I needed something for me to keep me going. I needed to keep focused and motivated. Not only that, but it has already been building my self-confidence. I am already feeling better about sharing my body. Not because I look good (because I don't yet), but because I know positive changes are happening. THAT gives me confidence.. A brighter future for myself.

My last goal involves others. I want others to know that they can be happy. They can be happy with themselves. Love yourself first before you can truly love others. Everyone deserves happiness. Everyone deserves respect. We need to respect ourselves, respect our bodies. I am still just beginning this journey myself. I have a long way to go. But it is worth it. I am worth it.